I'm so ready for vacation.

I don't really even want to talk about yesterday, but I guess I will.

We get to Springfield all prepared with snacks for Maia to keep her busy during x-rays, and a baby doll, and then go up to Dr. G's office and tell them who we are. The receptionist cannot find our paperwork. She looks in the computer and says "your appointment was the 12th". I said, "seriously?!". She said "yes, it was". I could not help myself and I bursted into tears. Thank goodness there was no one else in the waiting room because I would have really been embarrassed. I already was embarrassed, but you know how when you just start crying uncontrollably and just cannot stop the tears no matter how hard you try to because you really really want to stop? Well, that's exactly how I felt.

I still can hardly believe it. My date book said Friday the 15th and I remember very well the phone call. It was my pediatrician that set it up, they called Dr. G and then my pedi called me. So somewhere in that office-to-office communication, a date was said wrong and then said wrong to me. I guess.

I know I could have made the mistake, but you know how when you schedule something and usually they will tell you the appt date and then confirm it before hanging up? Well, I remember quite well my pedi's office saying the date. I had my date book open during the phone call and wrote it down as they said it. I really think it was their fault, and I say that because Dr. G doesn't even have clinic on Fridays which is why no one else was in the waiting room when we arrived. *sob*

But then what perturbs me is that Dr. G's office never called ME this week to confirm anything. Shouldn't a doctor that you have to wait months and months to get into call to confirm?? I think so, but perhaps I'm wrong.

So, yeah, I cried, and cried, and I couldn't even look the lady in the eye. She said let's reschedule now, and I said you'll have to talk to Neil. And then there is Maia playing with the toys in the waiting room totally oblivious to everything.

I think getting so upset reinforced my feelings of anxiety that I had with this appointment, and probably also showed me how stressed out I am with all this house stuff, with Maia's appt, with my work, etc., and I didn't really even realize it.

So with tears that I still can't get rid of, we walk out and Neil says "let's go eat" so we went to Chili's. No one was there because it was almost 2:00 and Maia was a princess while there and she had already missed her only nap of the day at noon. So after an enjoyable lunch we went to the mall and I got Maia a bathing suit for our trip and bought Neil some new shirts for Father's Day (I let him pick them out and he really enjoyed that) and I bought a couple items on sale (note to file, Gap is having their "Really Big Sale" right now). It was fun. Then off we went home to see Noah and O'ma who was watching him. (He was also at Jamie's earlier in the day. We learned he is terrified of horses - a story for later).

Then on the way home, Neil announces to me, that when we get back from vacation on Saturday, that he leaves again on Monday for GERMANY with work. Um, what?!?! Tears again. We have to start PACKING! There is no time for a week long work trip to Germany! We move in just 3 weeks from NOW!

So yeah, that's how my day went.

Sorry that was so long, but you know me. And I appreciate you making it down here to the bottom.

If I don't talk to you before we take off tomorrow morning, adios, my friends! I can't wait to feel the sand between my toes . . .


Biby Cletus said...

Cool blog, i just randomly surfed in, but it sure was worth my time, will be back

Deep Regards from the other side of the Moon

Biby Cletus

Joe Plummer said...

Hang in there cuz it will be smooth sailing before you know it. I know it is not real easy to think of when you are dealing with overwhelming circumstances, but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. I guess. Sounds like your life has been pretty hectic. Look at it this way you are getting to go and do things some people will never be able to do. I know you are sensitive and that helps make you the great person that you are. You will be in our thoughts and prayers. Hang in there girl you are tougher than you think you are. You have to be, you came from the family I did.

Tracey said...

Oh Val, what a crappy day! I'm so sorry the appointment didn't work out. And I agree with you, the doc's office should have called to confirm. Every office we've ever taken the kids to has called to confirm. And that sucks about Neil having to leave for Germany. If I lived closer I'd come help you pack. Hang in there and have a great time on vacation. Try to relax!

mama2dibs said...

Oh, Val! How awful! A day of bliss, followed by such frustrations. Isn't that the way of life? I feel for you. Just cling to God. He is there!

it's me, Val said...

You guys are the best . . . very best. You care and I love that! I know everyone else is super busy . . . it's Saturday . . but it's still nice to see some encouraging happy thoughts before I head out to my wedding today. Which, for those of you from my high school, I have to tell you, I'm a little nervous because the two I'm photographing went to school with us and just about the entire '93 and '95 and some of the '94 class will be there, plus their parents and children, and well, I hope it's fun and that I don't worry too much about making a good impression to those I haven't seen in 15 years because well, I tend to do that. Anywhooooo...toodles, guys! I can't wait till tomorrow when we're on that plane. I haven't been this excited in a long long long time.


MonkeyKisses - Liz said...

awe.. that has happened to me.. where i even have had the card where they wrote down the day, but they put it in their computer for a totally different day.. Several times when i was pregnant and I was hysterical. Why does life have to be so stressful?? I really hope everything falls into place for you. If I lived near ya I would help you pack while hubby was away!!!

Michelle said...

Hey...checking in here from GA!! Can 't wait for y'all to get here, it's beautiful!

Sorry to hear about yesterday. :(

Have a safe trip!

Erin said...

Oh, what a disappointment! Hope you can still enjoy your holiday and relax.

lil ole' me..... said...

Oh Val. I can just feel your "upsetness" in this post!
I hope y'all can go on vacation and have THE best time ever!
Sending lots of love your way!!! :)

Jen said...

oh sweetie all that preparation and you got the wrong day

i often get uncontrollable when im stress and start crying i think its because i get depression (I am on pills though)

safe travels
have a good vacation

melody is Slurping Life said...

Enjoy vacation, relax and take care.

Chel said...

I hate to move... I hate to pack... I hate having my people not all under the same roof. Hang in there with Neil gone. I hope the quick vacation does you good.

Mrs. M said...

i've been known to burst into tears in doctor's offices as well. when i'm stressed and tired i cry easily. just last night i cried with i stopped by a store to pick up a gift before it was gone from the registry and it was closed. i cried.

i hope the doc appt. works out for you! good luck packing and moving.

Tori said...

awww, sorry for the stressful day & all that you're dealing with sweets {{{hug}}}

Jo said...

Oh no!! I know that feeling all too well. You just keep telling yourself, "stop crying!" but you can't. Hope you are feeling better now and are enjoying the sand between your toes. I wish I lived next even a little closer, so i could help you pack!

Alexis Jacobs said...

I'm so sorry Val. I hope you can relax this vacation.

Christy said...

Oh my goodness, ((hugs))!!! Since I have recently moved, and had recent experience with uncontrollable crying, I completely sympathize! I hope you are having a wonderful time on vacation, and don't get more sunburned!