8.22.2008

Trying This Out

I decided to try a new place for my blog. I like blogspot, but I'm a person who thrives for change; it's what keeps me going and keeps my world fresh and exciting.

I like change, but only when I'm in control of it. (Don't most?) I like moving furniture around in my home (I have loved doing this sine I was in grade school. My mom would walk up to my room and I would have moved every single piece of furniture around all by myself. It never surprised her, and I did it quite a lot. My obsessions/habits/desires/loves began early on.), I like a new fresh bottle of ketchup even if it's not empty, I like new lotions even though I still have 7 yet to use, I want a new shampoo even when my current bottle is only half empty. That kind of thing. Bad thing, this "needing new" is also part of the reason why I am not organized. (The other part is family genetics from both mom and dad.) I move things and then forget where I moved them to. Oh well. I think if I wasn't like this, my life would be pretty ho-hum boring. I need something to keep me going even if it's sheer panic trying to find something I misplaced. So, I decided to try some change here, and hopefully I won't misplace anything by doing so. So far Square Space rocks. As I get use to it, I'm sure I'll make further changes. I just started playing around. But so far, so good. It's kinda cozy here.

My other reason for switching is that I wanted to be able to concentrate more on my photography. I will still talk about my kids (of course), my family, me, but I will probably share a photograph or two or three (or five dozen, hehe) every day. I love photography. Love it. Most of you know that, but if not, well, now you do. I live and breath it, and my closets full of photos prove that. Not that I have anything to prove. It's just one of those things that have been sitting in front of my face for most of my life.

Toward the end of my high school life, I remember finding myself stressing out over the "what in the world do I want to do for the rest of my life?" question (I knew some kind of art but wasn't sure what), but then proceeded to go to school for something I never really had a huge desire for (graphic design). The photography. . . it was always there and I never saw it. I think that's the most important thing I have learned in my life thus far. That we don't ever have to search around for happiness, for peace, for love because it's always right there in front of us staring at us. Sometimes we just don't want to pay attention. So I kinda did prove something to myself. That it's okay to be me. It's okay to love what I love. And that if I had just looked into my closets a bit closer when I was 18, I would have realized then what my passion was. Ah well. Living and learning, appreciating and loving -- that is what life is about.

So, with that said, this new blog is about me still, but more about me and my photography, which definitely goes hand in hand. I never use to think it did, but now I know it does. My kids even associate me now with my camera. I don't know if that's good or bad. But at least I am journaling their lives, our lives, in some way as we go along on this journey called life. I know I appreciate what pictures my mom took, the pictures my grandparents took, even the pictures my friends take. I hope one day they're appreciate what I shot, too.

Memory is the diary we all carry with us. ~ W.E.B. Dubois

Enjoy the new blog! :)

xxoo ~ Val

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