I am still alive.

Yay!

I'm home and recovering. So far it's been a breeze. I'm just sooooo tired. And I have a killer headache that won't go away. Reminds me of the one I had after my epi with Maia. The coedine is definitely helping ;) What a miracle drug.

I have to tell you, though. I made a wise decision today, I do believe. When the doctor came in to talk to me this morning at 8:00, he said that he saw one concern. He said that one of my teeth were sitting on a nerve. And he said he would take it out still if I gave him the go ahead, "but . . ."

"But?! . . . What was this he was about to tell me?!?!" I then started to panic. I'm not someone you say "but" to right before you sedate me.

He went on to say that with it sitting on the nerve, there's a pretty big possibility that I could have nerve damage resulting in loss of feeling in the lips, in part of my face, or loss of taste. I. Freaked. Out.

I literally freaked out. Sweat started dripping down my face and my back and I could feel my hair sticking to my neck. In a matter of seconds. The nurse could see I was profusely sweating and she turned on a fan and pulled my hair up. It was rather unpleasant, actually, and a little embarrassing.

When the doctor finally stopped talking (which I know he was talking to ease my nerves but I just really wanted him to leave the room so I could throw-up in private) he gave me the chance to respond. I decided NOT to have this other tooth out. To purposely put myself in danger was the stupidest thing I could do, in my opinion. That tooth didn't even hurt and it was so compacted that it wasn't moving anywhere anytime soon. So I decided not to have that one removed.

So they got started. I guess I was still a little in panic mode because they couldn't actually sedate me yet because my blood pressure was sky high. I didn't realize at the time how much I really was in a panic. So they had to take several more bp readings, and finally it went down, and all the sudden I started feeling better, so I guess they turned the gas on at that point because that's all I remember.

So anyway, I just had to share the experience with my state of panic this morning. I really really really don't want to do that again anytime soon, that is for sure.

And this is why I cannot willingly give blood.

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