Sand box messes & Reminiscing

I think Maia is trying to wean herself out of her naps. Some days I find her fighting me to go down, even 3 hours past the time she normally takes a nap, and other days she goes down perfectly, like today.

Yesterday was one of those days where she would not go down. She "talked" in her bed for an hour before I finally got her out. So instead of sleeping yesterday afternoon, she played.

We have a sand box at this house and the kids love it. Because of the messes that it creates, after they are done playing in it I always immediately take them to the bath. Yesterday was another sand box afternoon.

As soon as they were done in the sandbox, Noah went next door with his new little best friends, Lucas, 5, and Brevin, 4. He is in safe hands with Nikki, so I left him over there and gave Maia her bath.

After her bath she decided she wanted "on the couch" to watch "Bunge-bob" with her "towel" (she strangely loves towels). So I did. I went to clean up a few things in the house and came back 5 minutes later with clothes to put on her and I found her like this:Curled up on the couch . . . naked. It was 5:00 when I found her like this, so needless to say, she didn't sleep long. It was a long night for her last night without a much needed nap (we had mom's group in the morning and she played there, too). Neil did great putting up with her grouchy-ness while I worked.

So I've been reminiscing a lot the last week or so. This weather makes me remember being pregnant. I was very pregnant with both my kids this time of year in 2003 and 2005. Noah was born on the 15th, and Maia on the 18th. I remember going to the pumpkin patch both years very preggo and even shooting weddings, both years, the first weekend in October (38 weeks pregnant and swelling like you wouldn't believe). That was rough. Really rough. Thank God for patient clients and great friends like Mike, Nora & Heather.

Last year I wasn't able to reminisce too much. Grandpa was sick. Very sick. A year ago today he was in the nursing home. It was just last August that he went to the doctor where they found he had an intestinal cancer. So so quickly after that he went down hill.

I'm having a difficult time right now as I think about him a lot right now. I tried to visit him every couple days in the nursing home. Maia and Noah went with me a lot, also. It was hard. But I'm so glad I did it as often as I did.

Anyway, because grandpa was so on my mind every day, I didn't think much about the prior Octobers or even think about my children's birthdays. I was suppose to have a Halloween party last year and 2 kid birthday parties. They all sorta failed. They'll never remember that, and I'm not upset about it. More than anything I wanted to be there for grandpa. I knew I would not have him this year. I knew he wasn't going to make it. I knew I had to get ready for that. All parties and reminiscing could wait.

So this year I reminisce a lot. I remember all of the last 4 Octobers very very well:

4 Octobers ago I was very pregnant with Noah.
3 Octobers ago we celebrated my first child's 1st birthday -- and grandpa was there. I still remember it like yesterday. What a great celebration!
2 Octobers ago, Maia was born.
And last October grandpa died.

On a happy, funny, oh-my-gosh-look-at-Val note, this is what I looked like just 2 years ago:
Yeah, I was big.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! Miss you all still as I try to put my life back in order. Hope to be back sooner than later. Happy October!!


Jen said...

I suppose if Maia rests its better than nothing

My sister has a big family and she likes them to have nap/rest time
I think shes wise

My Little Man often has his afternoon sleep in the lounge on the couch or the floor

Beautiful photos of you from past Octobers
I particularly like the 2nd one]
I can see the love Neil has for you in that one :)

Hugs concerning your grandpa

love ya Val

Erin said...

I LOVE the picture of Maia on the couch. It was definitely too precious to NOT blog...

You must miss your Grandpa a lot. I know when my grandparents are gone it's going to be hard.

I'm glad that this year you get to have the big birthday/halloween clebration...it's going to be so much fun ; )

And holy cow that is a huge ball of a tummy! Well not really huge, just sticking straight out the front. Oh my goodness, darlin' you are cute. The picture of you and Neil is so sweet.

Chel said...

I have an October baby myself! How groovy!

oh amanda said...

Sweet sweet post! I love the pumpkin pic!

Michelle said...

Love Miss Maia zonked nakey on the couch!! ;)

What a big month October is for you! I am glad that you can look back and recall so fondly all of your great memories, preggie ones, and dear ones of grandpa!

Alexis Jacobs said...

What bittersweet memories ((hugs)) Too cute about Maia.

MP said...

That picture on the couch is priceless! Too cute.

Wow, you were ALL BABY!

Christina said...

I remember two Camp women that were preggers at my wedding :)

Jen @ One Moms World said...

You look beautiful Val :).

And isn't it weird how kids fight and fight sleep and then they sit down for two minutes and are out like a light? Silly kids hehe.

mama2dibs said...

Yeah, I'll have to have Chris take a picture of me and I'll post it. Granted, I'm not due THIS month, but yeah, not showin' so much. I think I'll accept it and just be glad that I'm comfortable and not miserable. :)

Louise said...

You are SO beautiful girl!! WOW pregnant women truly do have a glow, it suits you ;)~~